[ His words remain just as affectionate as before. ]
Years of planned courting have gone by the wayside in just a few words and a kiss.
[ He can feel his heart ache at seeing his smile.
Of course, Strohl soon breathes out a small laugh. If he had been wiser, he should have made his intentions known from the start. But then, if he didn't hold himself back with this tenuous process of showing his feelings, he fears what he might have done. He may have grown out of his impulsive behavior, but that is something that took their journey to do. ]
But I suppose that tells you the sway that you have over me.
[ It is only Halia that is his sticking point, but that is because of the weight it holds. His home and Will are pieces that he wants to protect with everything he has. But he fears what would happen if something were to occur again. Would he be able to be steadfast and triumphant? Or would he fail them in some way? Like he did when he stepped back as Will was almost turned into a Human? The shame he felt ate at him; he almost gave up on his desire to hold him as he is now.
What right did he have to wish for a future when he could not stand with him then?
But - he can't keep hesitating because of one wrong. He can't keep acting like one mistake is the reason he shouldn't seek something better. If he does, what does that mean for the country? What does that mean for the people? A little more forgiveness is needed for everyone.
And he can't stop his heart even if he wants to do so. ]
We don't have to wait for the next time to find out what more there can be.
[ Yes, for all his romantic and adoring thoughts, he can't deny the lustful ones, either. Especially since he is holding him so close and can still feel the warmth of his mouth against his own. ]
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[ His words remain just as affectionate as before. ]
Years of planned courting have gone by the wayside in just a few words and a kiss.
[ He can feel his heart ache at seeing his smile.
Of course, Strohl soon breathes out a small laugh. If he had been wiser, he should have made his intentions known from the start. But then, if he didn't hold himself back with this tenuous process of showing his feelings, he fears what he might have done. He may have grown out of his impulsive behavior, but that is something that took their journey to do. ]
But I suppose that tells you the sway that you have over me.
[ It is only Halia that is his sticking point, but that is because of the weight it holds. His home and Will are pieces that he wants to protect with everything he has. But he fears what would happen if something were to occur again. Would he be able to be steadfast and triumphant? Or would he fail them in some way? Like he did when he stepped back as Will was almost turned into a Human? The shame he felt ate at him; he almost gave up on his desire to hold him as he is now.
What right did he have to wish for a future when he could not stand with him then?
But - he can't keep hesitating because of one wrong. He can't keep acting like one mistake is the reason he shouldn't seek something better. If he does, what does that mean for the country? What does that mean for the people? A little more forgiveness is needed for everyone.
And he can't stop his heart even if he wants to do so. ]
We don't have to wait for the next time to find out what more there can be.
[ Yes, for all his romantic and adoring thoughts, he can't deny the lustful ones, either. Especially since he is holding him so close and can still feel the warmth of his mouth against his own. ]